010 - L'Imperatore's Reading

Layout: 6 Card Spread
Question: General Inquiry

Card 1: How L'Imperatore Feels About His Life Right Now:

5 of Wands: Obstacle overcome.  Dispute for futile reasons.  Quarreling couple.

My Thoughts: You might think that this card is L'Imperatore and me.  Yeah, I asked him to do the reading, and he agreed (although I think he didn't want to.)  And, yeah, I'm pretty bitchy towards him.  Mostly it shocked me that this came up.  This card isn't about L'Imperatore and me.  It's about L'Imperatore and his Mamma.  Looks like baby boy may be trying to sever some of the thousands of apron strings she's bound him tight with.

Card 2: What L'Imperatore Wants Most At This Moment:

5 of Swords: Overturn a situation.  Confronting risks.

My Thoughts: L'Imperatore is one of the least riskiest people I know.  The only place he lives dangerously is the dream world he inhabits.  Sorry, no real people allowed.  So if he's seriously contemplating being real I'm gonna be in the cheering squad on the sidelines.

Card 3 -  L'Imperatore's Fears:

10 of Coins: Changing fortune.  Courtship, projects.  Material goods are not enough.

My Thoughts: L'Imperatore was never taught to share.  He has a real problem with it.  He'd have $100 in his pocket and freaks if someone asks for $0.10!  Trouble is a selfish, bratty 40+ white man is not as cute throwing a temper tantrum about money as a 6 year old is.  He's been struggling with this for years and now that Mamma isn't supporting him as much reality is. . . well, real.

And, yeah, he's learning.  Budgeting, watching money, what's a real freakout moment ($20.00 or less in the bank) versus not having enough money to buy forty just released dvd's at one time.

Card 4 - What is Going for L'Imperatore:

Ace of Cups: The woman in the chalice symbolizes desire.  But, the physical and spiritual force is not enough for man. 

My Thoughts: At first this card did not make any sense to me at all.  Then L'Imperatore started talking about the last party his mom threw for him and I realized he's soaking up the 6 year old image.  He's getting money and gifts and POWER from having everyone do everything for him. 

Clever, clever social camoflauge.  Only problem is, he's long started believing the lies he tells, too.

Card 5 - What Is Going Against L'Imperatore:

8 of Coins:  Manual skills.  Arousal of sensations.

My Thoughts: When you're caught in dream world all the time - addicted to porn on the net, fiction stories, wonder woman and the such, you tend to loose the ability to do certain things in real life.  I'm not saying his imagination can't keep up.  It can.  But the real skills just aren't translating from his head to the bedroom. 

Also, so much of his physical life revolves around being coddled to.  It smarts when he has to do something in real life.

Card 6 - The Outcome:

2 of Coins: Voluptuous excitement, fun, orgasm.

My Thoughts: I once read for a man whose entire childhood and adult life had the same themes.  And no matter how hard he tried to change those themes, the friendships, the people in his life, the benefits sent his way, it all turned out the same for him.  At the point I'd read for him he'd been a parapalegic in a chair for three years.  How did he go from being an upright, good solid citizen to a crip?  Simple: he drove his car into a brick wall on purpose. 

L'Imperatore is the exact oppostie.  He doesn't want what's going on around him to change what's going on inside him.  (Remember: reverse is mental shit.)  He likes his dreams, and what he orgasms off of.

008 - Meet L'Imperatore

You've met him already. 
As it turns out L'Imperatore was represented in my reading as The Knight of Coin (R).  You remember him, the formerly violent man who has given it up for love.  Remember?  Maybe this will jog your memory:

Some background on the reading I did for him:

1.  Did it at a mexican restaurant with one of the staff looking on.  It made L'Imperatore uneasy.

2.  He's not comfortable with viewing nudity or erotic anything out in the open.  He's a closet perv.

3.  He totally did not connect with the deck, or the reading. 

4.  L'Imperatore is also a Tarot reader, or likes to think he is.  He once worked professionally as a reader, but gave it up when something more. . . erm . . . non-offensive came along.  He still has over 20 decks in his collection.  Not that he's used them lately, and maybe never will again. 

How This Connects
When I did my personal reading, and the follow up exploratory reading, I was confused at first as to who the Knight of Coin (R) was.  The day after I did the readings I told L'Imperatore that he'd come up in the readings.  As natural habit I asked if he wanted me to read for him. 

He Said Yes
I think, though, he really wanted to say no.  But such is the psychologically castrated nature of L'Imperatore.  Momma controls it all, even the things he says, even though he's not lived with her for years.  Even when he doesn't want to. 

So I, in my eagerness, pulled out the deck and did a reading for him right there in the restaurant.  Erotic cards and all. . .

007 - Pervy Readings

007 - Pervy Readings

So, if you haven't noticed by now I'm using the Decameron Tarot.  It's got an enjoyable number of pervy images.  I love this deck.  Love.  No question on that at all.  I also like 'peeping' at other people using this deck. 

A number of online reviews on this deck are based on the fact that it has too much of the 'wrong' images, or too few of the 'wrong' images or the wrong 'wrong' images.  Go figure.

This is how I look at it: sex is just surface.  Yeah, most of us key to sex.  There are a few of us who don't and who, for the life of them, will never be able to understand why the sexual act is so import.  Oh, the numbers of way physical intimacy is so, very important!

And not just on an evolutionary sense. 

So I like to 'peep' at people using the cards.  I generally tell them at first.  I even had a hilarious conversation with Poppa_Steve on twitter about when I perve through Tarot.  He wanted it right then.  *Smirk*  I wrote back,

 "I can't do it now.  You're expecting it.  You have to wait!  But you'll be my first after L'Imperatore!  *Wink*'. 

Yeah, as you can guess it's no fun Tarot Perving on someone who is expecting it. 

Speaking of expecting it I did a reading with the Decameron Tarot for L'Imperatore.  I mean, not an exploratory reading where I keep what comes up to myself.  I mean a reading sitting across from L'Imperatore himself.  Boyo, was that a mistake!

006 - The Kinght of Coin (R) Is . . .

006 - The Knight of Coin (R) Is . . .

On the way to breakfast I asked L'Imperatore if he thought himself a violent man.  His response was not as expected, and went against everything we'd spent the last decade discussing and/or hinting around in bed play as well as rememberences.  L'Imperatore said no.  No he did not think he was a violent man.

It's not my place to point out what I knew of him.  His violence, you see, was never put out there in his physical realm.  He'd never knowingly hurt a fly.  But such is the strangeness of a man subjugated to a mother and sisters who wished him to be as polite, refined, and of as delicate sensibilities as they were.  They might as well dressed him in lace and castrated him in the physical. 

L'Imperatore's dreams are quite a bit darker than they could have feared.  My imagination, though, does me quite well to remember that his observed nature is not towards violence, was never suffered for violence.  But underneath the charming politeness, puns and laugh-for-every minute storyteller is a man who wishes to be a perverse and dark lord.  So deep is that wish, that desire buried that when it surfaces it scares him.  And now . . . and now he is trying to convince himself those days are behind him. 

Such a shame.

I enjoy that darkness.